Disappointed

*flash* what was that? flash from a camera? i don't see anyone holding a cam.
strange. a sudden frightening thought invade my mind.
*shudders* taking long strides now.
*gasps* there it was again. the flash. it was so silent. don't look back. keep moving.
without breaking my stride, i turned the corner and saw something that stopped me dead in my tracks. i stared at it in amazement.

lol. most of it was just me being in another world. i was not walking in a deserted alley or something. i was walking in a completely safe surrounding.

the flash was real though. someone was busy taking photographs. and i did see someone being the model. with pretty make-up, a perfect hairdo, in a beautiful dress, posing like a MODEL.
ahhh. can i be the one in front of the camera????? pls.. so what if i don't have the height.
doesn't need any height requirements. they just gonna capture a picture of u.

thought i could but but but... sigh
first, i need to buy a rm300 estee lauder voucher. in return, i'll receive a goody bag worth rm250 of estee lauder products. the remaining rm50 was for the make-up, hairdressing, and photo shoots.
err, i think that's what i heard.

seems appealing huh? oh, i forgot to mention the main thing. the organiser. the name of this event. so branded that got me attracted to it. hehe
Estee Lauder Model Search.

even the sales promoter asked me to go for it. but but ...
no use talking about it now, it's over :(

well, can i at least get what i want. i seem to be out of luck in everything.
anyway, i don't believe in luck, i don't believe in fate.
i just believe in logic. i'm not superstitious. everything has got a logic explaination.

if i want something to happen, i'll have to make it happen. i can't wait for it. nothing is gonna fall from the sky and onto my hands. that only happens in my dreams. dreams don't come true.
never happen to me yet. ppl only said it when they have fulfilled theirs. what if they don't. they'll have to keep their mouth shut. same as me.
ok, so, i'm not the only one with unfulfilled dreams. but i won't stop till i've got hold of what i want. it might be a little unrealistic. but who cares. it's not for others to judge.
as long as i believe i can make it happen. :(